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I am having a hard time believing I am writing this right now.

I am pregnant!

When I found out, I was in shock for a little while.  I can't believe we have another surprise baby on our hands, and I am so excited to meet this new little life!

As a little background, since Clyde was born Derek and I have been talking about whether to try for one more baby or not. We weren't sure, so we agreed to wait until Clyde turned a year old and talk about it then.

Right before Derek started his new job, I started working out again, after months of procrastinating.  I did Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred for the first time in a long time, and I was feeling it, especially (so I thought) in my abs.  My whole lower stomach area was really sore a couple days after my workout.  I just attributed it to the Shred, until Derek made a comment later about it - and then it occurred to me that I might possibly be so sore because I was ovulating.

The next day my soreness was completely gone, which made me wonder.  I took my temperature the next morning, and it was definitely high - so I knew that I probably did ovulate.  But I didn't think much more about it until a couple days later, when my chest started hurting a little bit.  My chest never hurts as part of my pre-menstrual symptoms - I only ever get that symptom when I'm pregnant.  I knew there was a chance I could be pregnant, because our preventative method might have failed, but I thought it was unlikely.  Surely symptoms wouldn't actually start that soon, right?  It had only been about 3 days since I ovulated.

But my chest kept hurting, I had to use the restroom more often, I felt tired, I felt emotional, I was dying for some chocolate peanut-butter ice cream.  I felt pregnant.

I bought a few pregnancy tests, and I took one at 9 days past ovulation, because the test supposedly could give a result that early.  But it was negative, so I decided to try again in a couple days.

I decided to take another test on11 dpo, and I was convinced that I was going to get a positive.  I really felt pregnant, and even though I was trying to remain neutral, I hadn't been able to help thinking in terms of four kids for the past week.  I looked at the two types of tests I had.  One would be about 53% accurate at 11dpo, and the digital one would be 87% accurate at 11 dpo.  I was hoping to save my digital test, but I figured more accurate was better, so I took it.  And I sat there and waited and prayed while I watched the little clock icon blinking at me.

And I finally looked down and saw the word "No-".

I felt a surge of disappointment.  I tried to take the test at face value, because 87% chance of being accurate seemed pretty good to me.  I couldn't believe I had fooled myself into thinking I was pregnant when maybe I wasn't after all.

It was a MOPS morning, so I got the kids up and dressed, and headed out.  We stopped at the grocery store for some breakfast, and I bought another set of pregnancy tests - that other 13% kept running through my mind, and I knew I'd want to take another one in a couple days, just in case.  I bought myself a Venti coffee at Starbucks, because if I wasn't pregnant I might as well enjoy my caffeine.

I settled in my chair at MOPS, and I let Wyatt stay with me since he kept insisting "I want to sit wit yoooou today, Mama".  We ate breakfast, and then listened to one of our mentor moms give a devotion.  I looked at the 1/3 of a Venti that I had left, and suddenly that coffee seemed like a really stupid idea.  What if I really was pregnant?  I ended up throwing the rest away.

For the craft that day, we made a bird nest necklace, with wire and beads.  Typically you make a necklace with the same number of beads as kids that you have.  I stared at the bowl of beads and debated about how many beads to take.  I took four and tried to hide them from my group, until I realized that a few other people added more beads than kids too.  I told myself one of the beads could be for Derek, but I knew if I wasn't pregnant I would never wear that necklace.  It just felt wrong not to include four beads.

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On the drive home my mind was running a hundred miles an hour.  What if I was pregnant?  I should probably take a test the next day so I could properly shield myself while taking x-rays at work.  I felt on the verge of crying all the way home, and I was having a hard time convincing myself that all my symptoms were due to PMS.

The last five minutes on the drive home I started feeling really anxious.  I'm not even sure why, but my stomach hurt.  I felt like I couldn't breath.  I was shaky.  I was wondering if maybe it was partially because of the caffeine, and it was affecting me differently because I was pregnant.  I have never felt so weird before, and I tried to take deep breaths.

I parked at home and slowly gathered my things together to bring inside before I got the kids out, but I just felt weird.  I looked down at the grocery bags, and I saw those pregnancy tests I had bought.  And suddenly I knew I had to take one now, even though it was the middle of the day.

I told the kids I would be right back to get them, rushed in the house, and headed straight to the bathroom.  I glanced at the pamphlet and saw that these would be 96% accurate at 11 dpo.  I took the test, and sat there and stared at it while it developed.

And very slowly, a faint second line appeared.

I was pregnant!

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I burst into tears, because I was so happy, and also a little scared.  I was shaking still, but I brought all the kids in, fed them lunch, and got them down for a nap.  Then I sat on the couch in shock for a couple hours.  I just couldn't believe I was pregnant!

Waiting all afternoon until Derek got off work was torturous - I was making myself sick with the waiting, and trying to decide how to tell him. I decided to just tell him on the phone, instead of waiting until he got home, because I was still feeling anxious and shaky and weird.  I couldn't wait that long to tell him!  I knew he wasn't expecting this at all.  I tried to call him several times but I just kept getting voicemail, then finally he called me back.

I asked him how his day was, then told him "I'm pregnant", and immediately burst into tears again (thank you, pregnancy hormones).  He said "Well, I guess we're having four kids!", and after the initial shock wore off he told me he thought this would be a really good thing!  He has been so excited about our little peanut ever since!

Derek really wanted to tell his mom right away, so I called my mom and dad too.  I sent my mom a text with a picture of the necklace I had made that day.  I told her I wanted to show her this necklace I made, and I said there was a bead for each of my kids.

"Oh, that's so cool, honey!" she said.  "What's the fourth bead for?"

"There is a bead for each of my kids."

"But there's four."

"I know."

"Are you trying to tell me something?"

Then I told her and burst out crying again (are you noticing a pattern?).  She was excited for us, and put my dad on the phone so I could tell him.  He joked "What are you doing to me - I'm going to have to buy a bus!".

I got the kids in bed, Derek finally got home, and he brought Qdoba for dinner.  He gave me a hug, and we talked, and ate dinner in bed while we watched "The Celebrity Apprentice".  It felt like the perfect way to celebrate.

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We had an ultrasound on February 16th, and it worked out perfectly because Derek had President's Day off!  We got to see our little jelly bean for the first time.  I was looking for that heart fluttering on the ultrasound screen, but the ultrasound tech moved around so fast that she had me worried. But then I saw that little flicker! What an amazing feeling that is, to see your precious little baby's heart beating.  The heart rate was 163 bpm for those of you who want to start gathering evidence for your gender guess!

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(Getting ready to go in and see our baby!  It snowed quite a but that day, but there was no way I was cancelling our ultrasound.)

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(The tech gave us a 3D image, and I thought it was so cool!  Look at that little baby!)

My due date is September 27th, and it just amazes me how the Lord made the decision about a fourth baby before we had to!  I am so glad He did, and I could not be more thrilled - I always wanted four, and the Lord decided to grant that desire of my heart!  This baby was planned by Him, and He orchestrated everything in His perfect timing to bring this little one into existence.

My plan is to keep this pregnancy as low-stress as possible and just enjoy every minute of it, since this baby will probably be my last one.  Shortly after I took my test that day, I feel like the Lord reminded me about my word for the year - simplify.  I want to keep things simple this pregnancy and just soak up every little milestone, every little kick.  I keep thinking about who this new little life will be, and I feel like the most blessed girl in the world! We are so excited and happy about our fourth precious gift!

Bump updates coming soon!
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13 comments

  1. Surprise babies are the best! Emme was my surprise and the whole pregnancy, labor, delivery felt so orchestrated by God. I know your baby #4 will be the same. What an exciting story! Congratulations again sweet friend.

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  2. Congratulations, Callie!! I have always said I wanted 4 kids, but #2 is now going on 2 months old and I feel like we are such a mess...so maybe we will just have to wait and see! :) LOVE your bird's nest necklace!

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  3. So happy for you! God's timing is PERFECT! And I love that necklace :)

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  4. I love this so much!!! What a great story Callie -- I can't wait for #4 to join you all!! Best wishes on a happy, healthy, stress-free pregnancy! :)

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  5. Oh yey! Cried as I read this - I'm so happy for your guys! What a blessing to make that necklace on that day :)

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  6. So fun! Congrats again on your growing family!! Also, I'm just like you... With both pregnancies, I just KNEW I was pregnant despite the fact that I kept getting negative test results and just kept trying them until they were positive. Haha! I love that you left the kids in the car to go take one - something I would TOTALLY do! Praying for an easy first trimester...

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  7. Oh, how exciting! I really feel like you can just 'know' when you're pregnant. With both of mine I felt pregnant long before I took a test to say yes or no. I am so very excited for you! I love that that you went ahead and put four bead on your necklace even though you weren't sure at the time! So fun! And also, that necklace is so pretty! Yay for you!

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  8. Such a fun an emotional story, and I love the necklace part, too!

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  9. I love this story! God's plans are infinitely better than our own! I love the story about the necklace--that will be so special for you always!! I'm thinking another girl :) Gotta keep the pattern going ;)

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  10. So Good!!! Callie, I love this. I love your story! It brought up many emotions for me, the feeling of not planning or expecting pregnancy but the excitement and anticipation that still came!! The Lord knows exactly what He is doing with your family. He knows that you are wonderful parents and wanted to give you another child to raise, because He knows how well you will do! I love my bundle of 4. And although we are done having children, and I have such a peace about it, when I see even larger families I cannot help but feel joy and see the beauty in what so much of our world looks down on.

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  11. We have had our last but I can't wait to follow your updates! Congrats and blessings!

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  12. Congratulations Callie!!! I'm due 9/23 with baby #3 so we are only a few days apart!

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