Pregnant!


Yes, my friends, you read that right. Derek and I are going to have a baby!

I wrote this post right after we first found out so I could remember everything that happened. It's taken me a while to believe that we're really going to have a baby. It's been surreal up until this past week, when we had our first doctor's appointment.

I'm so incredibly happy though, and I feel so blessed. Derek and I had been praying for a baby for a while, and I had gotten to the point where my heart was prepared for it to take a long time to get pregnant. But the Lord has His timing, and He's always keeping me guessing!

He's blessed me in a way that I wasn't even expecting. Earlier this year, I was very anxious about my fertility problems, and I was starting to think I was never going to have a baby, and maybe Derek and I would have to adopt. But we both wanted a baby so badly.

Then one day, as I was crying and praying in my car on the way to work, the Lord just reassured me that everything would be alright, that He had good plans for me, and that I would have a child someday. I don't know how to explain it - it was just that quiet reassurance and the peace that accompanies it, and it just washed over me.

The Lord showed me His love for me in my car that day, and I was able to let go and turn it all over to Him. The subsequent months were fairly worry-free for me. I still didn't know when, and I'd still feel a little blue every now and then, but I had decided to give it to the Lord and not worry so much.

Honestly though, I really wasn't expecting anything to happen right away or anything. But I guess all you need is one good cycle . . .

As most of you know, I've been having alot of trouble with my body since we went off the pill in July 2009. In fact, it took eleven months for everything to straighten out. If you would like to her more about our trying to conceive story, please send me an e-mail, and I'll be happy to answer any questions you have!

In early May I visited my fertility doctor, and he ran some tests and gave me progesterone to help straighten things out. I was pretty hopeful when I took it, but I wasn't really expecting too much - in fact, I was planning on saving some money to go to the chiropractor again, one that specialized in helping with fertility. I thought it would be nice if I got pregnant, because then I could spend the chiropractor money on prenatal visits, but I wasn't getting my hopes up.

I really didn't notice any abnormal symptoms. I didn't have to go to the bathroom more than usual, I didn't feel sick at all. I felt a little more tired at night, but I figured that was just because I hadn't gotten as much sleep. I also felt more emotional, but that wouldn't necessarily be related to being pregnant.

The one thing that gave me hope was that my temperature was staying nice and high, which had never happened before.

I tell you, that two-week wait was the longest two weeks of my life. I somehow made myself wait until exactly two weeks to take a test, even though part of me wanted to take it sooner. But I was a little afraid of getting a negative result.

So on Saturday morning, the day Derek and I planned to go hiking, I stayed in bed for a couple hours longer than normal, then I walked into the bathroom and opened the pregnancy test. I was pretty much preparing myself for it to be negative, because I didn't want to expect anything and then be disappointed.

Afterwards, I set it on the counter, and as I looked at the little windows, I realized that the results window looked like it was turning blue. I looked away and forced myself not to look at it for another minute so I could get my contacts in, even though my heart was pounding. When I could actually see, I looked back at the pregnancy test.

Two blue lines.

I was just shaking at this point. The whole week prior I had been scheming about how I would tell Derek if I got a positive result, but all my creative ideas just went out the window when I saw those lines. I grabbed the test, and called out Derek's name from the bathroom door, holding the pregnancy test up for him to see.

I could tell he wasn't getting it. He told me later that he thought I was upset that Harvey had chewed up my thermometer or something (which is what he thought the test looked like).

I walked over to the bed, still shaking, with tears in my eyes. I showed him the test, and said "I think we're pregnant!" He was really excited, and hugged me and kissed me, even though he tells me he already knew. Apparently I was acting rather moody that week. I guess I can see that, but I wouldn't have thought that it was due to being pregnant!

It was perfect to find out on a Saturday, because then we had the rest of the day to celebrate together. We went on our lovely hike (you'll remember the post about hiking to the spring), and just talked and basked in the light of our good news. Then later that night Derek took me out to see Toy Story 3, and we went to look at pregnancy books at Barnes and Noble.

Here's a couple pictures we took on that hike that we didn't show you.







Me at 4 Weeks Pregnant!

I took a digital test the next day for a confirmation. Same result! I guess it was just hard for me to believe it was right - but the digital test dispelled my fears about getting an incorrect result.

I can't tell you how hard it's been to keep this a secret for this long! I sat down a week after the pregnancy test and wrote this post, because I just couldn't stand it anymore, even though I've waited a month and a half to post it. It felt good to get it out, even if I didn't share it then.

I found out at exactly four weeks. And here I thought the two week waiting period was long! It's been tortuous to not just break down and tell everyone right away, but we wanted to keep it our secret for a while.

My first appointment was last week - more to come on that later. As you read this, I'll be 10 weeks, 4 days pregnant!

I'm so happy and excited, and so thankful for this incredible blessing! Every child is gift from the Lord, and I think the Lord has used these months of waiting to help reiterate to me just how precious a gift a child is. I'll never take such a gift for granted again.

For all of you ladies still trying for a baby out there, know that I'm praying for you. I know how it feels to be trying with no luck - it took my body eleven months to straighten out, and it was incredibly frustrating. But the Lord always knows what He's doing, and I know He's using you in wonderful ways through these trials and He has great plans for you. I'm excited to read how He works out your desires for children as well!

I want to thank all of my sweet blogging friends for your prayers for us as well. I have no doubt of the part your prayers played in bringing about our happy news.

My due date is March 3, 2011! I can't wait to hold our baby in my arms . . .

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Jessica said...

What great news to start a Monday morning with! Congratulations! That is very very exciting news! :)

LeAnna said...

Awww, congrats!! God is so good! With my first I found out right at 4 weeks, too and waited until 8 wks to tell people. I was SO hard. Such an exciting time in your lives, bring on the baby posts!

Cheyenne said...

Ahhh!!! Callie!!! I'm so excited for you! I haven't even read this post yet because when I saw pregnant I was so excited and had to comment IMMEDIATELY!!! Congratulations to you and Derek! God is so good, and I will be praying for you guys and this new little one growing in your tummy. :) yay!
Now back to go read the whole post!

Emily Dupuis Powell said...

YAY! I've been praying for you every night! I've had the same frustrations you've had (crying and giving it to God) but I've only been trying 3 months. I am now 9 days late but the tests all say negative. I've NEVER been late and now that I start trying that's when my body decides to go crazy on me. I have a dr. appointment today to see what's up.

Jessica said...

Congratulations!! I'm so happy for you, and can't wait to read all about it here!

Marissa said...

Congratulations!

Amber Hansen said...

I'm so excited for you, friend. What a huge blessing. God is so good, isn't He? Can't wait to hear more in your next email :)

...::Heather @ Mrs. Southern Bride::... said...

Awe, congratulations!!! So exciting! :)

Mrs. Gibby said...

Congratulations! So, so, SO happy for you!

katie said...

Wahoo!! Callie, I'm so thrilled for you and Derek. You are a lovely woman of the Lord and I know you will be a wonderful mother who will train her child up in the way of the Lord.

What incredible news for a Monday morning (and my anniversary at that!) and your due date is my brothers birthday! So many congratulations!

Rachel said...

Congratulations!! Can't wait to keep up with your pregnancy on your blog!

Anne said...

Congratulations!!!! This is so exciting! When I saw the title of this post my heart just skipped. So happy for the two of you :)

Rachel and John said...

Oh Congratulations! That's so exciting! I'm so happy for you!!

Anna said...

You know how excited I am for you! It was fun to read all of the details. Congratulations again, Callie!!! :)

Brittany Ann said...

Oh, honey, congratulations! How exciting!

We have very similar journeys, and your story gives me hope:)

Meg said...

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you guys!! :)

Sarah said...

Congratulations! How wonderful :)

Anonymous said...

Callie, I am SOOOO excited for you! I haven't been following your blog for as long as you've been trying but I know from experience that 11 months can feel like a lifetime! :) I'm so happy for you guys! Congratulations!

Claire said...

CONGRATULATIONS! I am so happy for you! What a fun story to tell your sweet baby one day ;) I'm 19 weeks 4 days pregnant... so we're just 9 weeks apart in our pregnancies! I'm so happy for you and can't wait to follow more of your journey into parenthood! Wish I could give you a great big congratulatory hug! Love the "belly" pictures :) Say goodbye to that flat tummy for a little while! (although it WILL come back one day...)

Sarah Louise said...

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!

Natalie said...

congratulations!!

Lauren said...

OH my goodness!!! Congratulations, what a blessing from God! I'm so happy for you both!

Melanie said...

Congrats Calli!! Thats wonderful news..I loved reading your story and it brought me alot of hope. I found out I was pregnant just a few short weeks ago only to miscarry at about 2 weeks along. It is frustrating but at the same time I know God has His perfect timing. :-) I look forward to the day I am sharing my pregnancy story on my blog just like you are now...enjoy this special time..you deserve it!!!!!!!!!

Tatiana said...

That is such awesome news! Congratulations! I know how much you really wanted this and how scared you must've felt. God is so amazing, and He's timing is always the best! Yay for joining the mommy to be club! I welcome you :-)

Kate Craig said...

congratulations!!!!

bebe bird beck said...

So beautiful! God is so good!

Congratulations!!!

Mrs.LifeAccounts said...

SOOOO happy for you!!! But then you already knew that! :) I'm super excited to follow along with your journey and you know if you need anything I'm here for you!

5th Belle Avenue said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! What an amazing, sweet blessing!

Nicole Z said...

CONGRATS CALLIE!! That is wonderful news! SooSoo happy for y'all!! :)

lindsey said...

Congratulations Callie! I am so happy for you!!!!!

Kara @ KSS said...

Yay! Now I can talk about it with all our mutual friends!! Hehe...

Stephen and Larissa said...

Congratulations! What an exciting time for you guys!!

Mrs. Lukie said...

Oh, Callie!! Congratulations to you & Derek, sweet friend! I am so excited to sneak a peak at your blessed life over the next 7ish months :)

Stephanie said...

Congratulations Callie!

May God richly pour out His grace on you both in this new season of pregnancy!

Kelley said...

what wonderful news! And I hope your baby waits until March 5th, because in my opinion that's a great day to be born!

Rebecca Louise. said...

I had tears falling down my cheeks as I was reading this!!!

I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Congratulations, your're going to make wonderful parents!!!! :) :) :)

Chloƫ said...

Yay babies! So so excited for you. What a cute baby you're going to have!

Mrs. A said...

Congratulations looks like we have something in common as I too am due in March albeit a little later March 16th :) Came over from The Life Accounts cute blog can't wait to share this journey with you.

Hannah said...

Praise the Lord!! So happy for you guys! This is great so so so great! I know you've been longing for this and what a good God we have that he gave you the desires of your heart! I hope you are feeling well and aren't too exhausted... those first few weeks can be rough... but soon enough you'll be where I am now. Feeling the baby move and full of a lot more energy. YAY!!!!

Anonymous said...

Ahhhh I am so excited for the two of you!! How marvelous! :)

christi @ grey umbrella said...

CONGRATS!!!!! God is so good!

julie said...

Congrats! I am a new follower of your blog!

Amanda Godin said...

First of all, congratulations! I found your blog through a friend's blog and after reading this post, I started to tear up. I've been going through what you went through after going off the pill. My heart's desire is to be a mother and I keep believing that it will happen in God's time. Thank you for the encouragement. God always puts the right people (and blogs!) in your path when you need it.

Jenene said...

Oh, I'm so happy for you guys!! Congratulations!! I have so much more to say, but I think I'll say it in an email instead. :) Yaaaaaaay!!!

Casa Cannon said...

That is great news and a really sweet post! so happy for you!

Katie Spinks said...

congrats Callie Im so excited for you - you'll be a great mommy!

cait said...

Oh my!! How exciting! I am really behind on reading blogs, and I can't believe I missed this. :) It's so amazing to see God work through your story! What an amazing testimony to His faithfulness. Excited to read about the rest of your pregnancy journey! Have a wonderful weekend!

Mandie said...

When I find a new blog I love poking around and reading older posts. This post is so great and I know you'll love having it all written down to read later. I was also using FAM when I got pregnant and my chart for that month (I've kept it) has become very sentimental to me, I look at it and remember how excited we were (and yes, those two weeks of waiting seemed FOREVER). My hubby and I found out we were expecting one week before our 10th wedding anniversary, it was a great present!

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