Going Back

I went back to work last week.

I saw alot of my favorite patients, and I didn't fall behind like I thought I would. It generally went better than expected.

But I hate being away from Wyatt. Hate it. If you don't have to go back to work at all, I hope you thank the Lord every day for it.

I really can't complain too much though, because I only have to work two days a week. I have to thank the Lord for that fact. It's way better than going back full-time.

I would love to be a stay at home mom someday. But for now, I know the Lord wants me here.

Before we got pregnant with Wyatt, I used to get pretty anxious about what we would do when we had a baby. I knew I'd probably have to keep working for a while, but everything in me fought the idea of putting my baby in daycare.

Not that there's anything wrong if you have to put your child in daycare. I know for alot of moms, there really isn't another choice. But for me personally, the thought just turned my stomach. Derek didn't want to have to do that either if we could help it, because when he was growing up he had to go to daycare and had some unhappy experiences.

I think I started praying even before we got pregnant that they Lord would work it out so that when we had a baby, I wouldn't have to put him in daycare, or maybe even that I might be able to stay at home. At the time, I was working Mondays and Thursdays each week.

After I got pregnant though, my anxiety about this problem reached a climax. Problems like that and pregnancy hormones don't mix. I had to give it to the Lord all over again, and trust that He would take care of it for me. I actually wrote this post, "To Trust Him (And a Good Cry)", within a few days of finding out I was pregnant, and it was because of my worry about working when I had a new baby.

(Though I'm sure you all thought that post was still about waiting for a baby, huh? I learned those lessons while we were trying to conceive, and I had our fertility struggle in mind as well, but I actually wrote it after I found out I was pregnant. Just goes to show there is always something to worry about.)

Shortly after I got pregnant, Derek got his new job. As we started thinking about what we would do when I had to go back to work, Derek got the idea that maybe he could switch to four ten-hour days at his job. He talked to his supervisor about it, and she agreed right away, and Derek said he'd like to take Thursdays off.

So that took care of one day! At this point I was thinking it might be just one day in daycare instead of two, which was better.

But then, several weeks later, my boss came to my operatory and asked me how I would feel about switching my days to Thursdays/Fridays, instead of Mondays/Thursdays. I agreed right away, because my mom and sister have Fridays off. I knew if I worked Fridays instead, they could watch my baby that day!

Instead of my baby being taken care of by strangers, I know when I'm scraping away at my patient's teeth, Wyatt is either with his dad or my mom.

Thinking back now, I'm just amazed at how the Lord granted that simple request of mine so perfectly. He worked everything out so I don't have to send my baby to daycare while I am at work, which is what I was concerned about most.

So though I have to work right now, I know that the Lord must want me working at this point in my life, because He orchestrated events to make sure I could have peace of mind about Wyatt when I had to go back. It was a wonderful gift.

I still hate leaving my baby. But as I said, I really can't complain at all.

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Lauren said...

What an incredible blessing! I work for the family business and I'm already wondering what it's going to look like once the baby arrives! I'm definitely in prayer about what God would have us to do!

LeAnna said...

Don't you love it when God shows us He cares, and works those things out? He is SO good like that, when we trust Him with everything.

Unknown said...

Wow... that is so great you have family to help you out like that! And my heart is going to BREAK when I have to go back to work - I can't imagine!

Brittney Galloway said...

What a blessing! I'm glad you have family that can help out!

Anna said...

I'm sorry you have to work, but I was doing a happy dance for you in my mind when I got to the end of this entry and realized sweet Wyatt won't have to be in daycare! Having worked in daycares, I think Mom, Dad, or Grandma are far superior (in most cases, obviously). How awesome that Wyatt will get a Daddy day and an Auntie/Grandma day instead of having to go to daycare! I will pray that you'll be able to stay home full-time soon, but in the meantime, I'm so happy you can enjoy knowing your baby is being loved on just as much while you're at work. :)

Anonymous said...

Oh goodness, I had such anxiety when i was pregnant with Q. We had two vehicle payments, and no way could we even afford daycare, nor considered it. But I didn't know how I'd ever be able to stay home with two vehicle payments.. but the Lord made a way! Even though I tried and tried to sell the darn thing, I ended up with some extra bonuses at work, plus income tax, and we somehow managed to pay it off! The Lord does take care of those details in our lives, most defiantly!

Jenene said...

Praise the Lord for working that out! Since I decided to be a stay-at-home mom, Art and I are trying to trust God in a different way: that his income would be enough to take care of the three of us.

Mrs. Lukie said...

Sweet, sweet blessing! I imagine it's tough to be away from your little one while you're working, but oh, how wonderful to know he is such GOOD hands while you're gone!

Rachel and John said...

How wonderful! I hope he provides in the same way for me when I have to find a job to go back to.

chloƫ. said...

So happy for you :) I know it must be hard, but at least God has provided in an AWESOME way. And one day you'll stay home with your baby(ies), I just know it! And that'll be a good day :)

Natalie said...

wow, what an awesome story!! how great that you get to have peace knowing that wyatt is always in good hands and you don't have to worry about him at all. God is so funny the way He works things out, isn't He?!

Unknown said...

It is so amazing how God works things out! I am so proud of your attiude (some people would still be upset about just having to go back..including me). I am praying for you as I am sure it is still a big adjustment but I am so happy that you didn't have to put him in daycare!

Meghan said...

I totally hear you on this one! I used to have anxiety simply at the thought of going back to work long before I was even pregnant. I'm not returning to teaching until after summer (so it might be easier to say now then when I'm actually working) but even though I have to work full time, I'm okay with it because I am SOOOOO happy that I have Donovan! I used to want to put off getting pregnant until we had more savings yada yada... but I wouldn't change a thing. I'd work 80 hours a week to know that I had sweet little D waiting for me when I got home. I'm so excited that you'll be home with Wyatt part time. Such a blessing! Thanks for your prayers for tomorrow. You're so sweet to have remembered. I hope you're having a better week this week. I've been thinking about you. ;)

Julie S. said...

Your attitude towards this is great- even though it's hard, you are seeing the sunshine and thanking God! I have my day where I wonder if I made the right choice but despite the difficulties, I do love staying home. I know that God has me here for a reason! :)

Sarah said...

I am so glad this worked out and he is with family. Praise God! He takes care of you. I know that stomach-turning feeling you are talking about. If my parents hadn't let us move in with them, I'd be working full-time. :( Thank God for His provision!

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