On My Baby Turning One

 

I haven’t really sat down yet to write about the elephant in the room this week.

My baby boy will be one year old on Saturday.

I’m feeling surprisingly calm about it.  I haven’t cried.  I haven’t felt overly emotional or sentimental.

Maybe it just hasn’t hit me yet.  It’s very possible that I’m feeling so calm because I’m just thinking about his party right now.  It’s possible that I’ll sit down after the party, look through pictures from a year ago, and bawl my eyes out.

Or maybe it’s because I’ve been struck many times in the last several months with how much he’s grown.  I’ve watched his birthday orchid, which Danae brought to me in the hospital, go from a barren twig to a full bloom once again, and I knew his birthday was coming the second I realized there were new buds sprouting (thanks to my husband for keeping it alive, by the way – if I had been in charge of it, it would have died by now).  So now, with his first birthday in just a few days, maybe I’m already used to the idea.

 

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What I do know is this – I’m not going to use this day as some sort of marker of the end of his babyhood.  That’s not what the first birthday is.  Sometimes people get in a rush to start calling their children toddlers, but children don’t turn from babies into toddlers with the passing of some magical date on the calendar.

I see more and more of the little boy he will be coming out in him, but he’s still very much a baby too.  The ending of babyhood is not some milestone to be reached.  Babyhood ends gradually, and the process began months ago.  I think the Lord made the transition from baby to toddler gradual on purpose, to make it a little easier for a mother’s heart to take. 

I won’t make it harder on myself by psyching myself out and telling myself he’s not a baby anymore.  He’s still part baby.  And even as he grows and loses all traces of baby-ness, there are joys with each stage of his life.  I won’t rush any of the stages.  And I won’t grieve too much over the ending of any of the stages either.

Because he is a gift in any stage, and no matter how he grows, he will always be my baby.


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LeAnna said...

So true! Babies turn to toddlers at their own pace. My Q was a toddler, fast. But thankfully Sprig is dragging the process out. It helps this Mama's heart not be too sad.
So, with that, happy early birthday to your sweet boy!

Kristin said...

I can't believe he is already one, it seems like just yesterday I was reading about his birth!! I know I will be a WRECK when my little man turns one, so thank you for putting it into perspective for me :)

Unknown said...

Your so right Callie! Every baby grows differently...cannot believe he will soon be one! x

Nicole said...

it's a BIG day, but not the biggest. You'll see... it's much more sweet than bitter. Don't we all want to see our babes grow and learn and advance... moving forward? And you'll know when he becomes a real "toddler". He'll be walking, no RUNNING, and destroying everything in his path! But, even as a toddler, kid, tween, teen or adult, he'll always be your "baby".
Congrats Mama, for making it a WHOLE year! It's as much a celebration for YOU as it is for him. You did it!

Ria @ Life as a Wife! said...

What a special post... I love the birthday orchid, what a neat idea :) Have a fun party and remember SO many more fun times/memories as he embarks on his 2nd year of life. Wow! BLESS YOU!

katie said...

What a sweet sweet post Callie. And a beautiful orchid to boot... Derek must have a very green thumb.

Veronica and Daniel said...

Awww! So sweet. Your last line reminded me of the book "Love You Forever" by Robert Munsch. And the flower picture is stunning!

Kara @ Just1Step said...

Aw Callie don't be sad. I think they become more and more fun with each passing day. Although I feel sentimental about how much Krew has changed and grown sometimes, I wouldn't go back for anything. I love the little boy he has become, how interactive he is, what a little PERSON he is. :)

Congrats on the first year, and I hope his birthday party is wonderful. :)

Natalie said...

This is so precious!! :) I really hope my attitude is just as good when Callyn's 1st birthday rolls around!

Lauren said...

what a sweet sweet post...I honestly expect myself to feel almost exactly the same way 10 months from now at Elyse's first birthday!

and you're right, they will ALWAYS be our babies...regardless of the date on the calendar!

Happiness Is... said...

I love this line: " I think the Lord made the transition from baby to toddler gradual on purpose, to make it a little easier for a mother’s heart to take."

Thatcher turns 1 tomorrow. Haven't had time to process it!

Meghan said...

It really hit me on the eve of D's actually B Day. Just the thought of how quickly the first year flew by and how different he is now. I hope Wyatt's birthday is a very special day for all of you!

Dove of Snow said...

Happy Birthday to your sweet little baby boy! Yes, I think he's a baby still. And that's perfectly all right. He will make a darling toddler, as well. :)

Kelley said...

Why do they have to grow so fast? It makes me sad, and excited all at the same time!! Happy birthday sweet wyatt!

Callie Lynch said...

From one Callie to another let me just say Wyatt is adorable!! Just read your birth story and it got me so excited to meet my little one! Hope you guys have a wonderful birthday party!

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