On "Treasure"

I'm sorry if you're seeing this post for the second time, I had some post scheduling issues.

Since 2013 is coming to a close, I wanted to reflect a little bit on the word I chose for this past year.  


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This is the first year that I've participated in choosing a word for the year, and I think it was a good experience.  

When I first chose the word, I thought I had an idea of how the year was going to go.  I thought that we probably wouldn't start trying for another baby until the end of this year, so I wanted to just take these twelve months and appreciate all the sweet times with my two babies.  I wanted to try not to worry about our past trying-to-conceive problems until (I thought) I had to face them at the end of this year.

 Sometimes I get so wrapped up in future plans and worries about the future that I forget to take time to truly appreciate the moments that I am in right now, so in my mind I chose that word as a reminder to myself to not worry and just treasure the present moments.

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And that's what I did, but little did I know that the Lord would bless us with a surprise baby!  So at the end of July, instead of remembering not to worry about Baby #3 and appreciate this year with Wyatt and Gwen, "treasuring" became about treasuring every moment with Wyatt and Gwen and each little milestone with this baby.  

Having the word "treasure" became a good thing in another way, because when you already have two little kids running around it requires more intentional thought to notice and treasure the little moments with the baby growing inside you.  That first bit of movement, breaking out all my maternity clothes again, watching my belly grow - I want to treasure every minute of this pregnancy, because it may very well be my last.

Another way that the concept of "treasuring" the moments took me by surprise this year was how much I have come to appreciate and treasure Derek.  I'm not sure why my time with him wasn't something I thought about when I picked "treasure" as my word, but it wasn't.  In 2012 Derek got a new job that requires him to travel a lot, but the traveling didn't really start until this year - and having him gone so much makes me realize how much I had taken him for granted.  It also makes our time together that much more precious to me.  

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He is home for now, until he has to start traveling again in the next few months, and I am just soaking up the time of having him here.  The little things make a big difference, even something like having him sleeping next to me.  I never would have taken time to appreciate something like that so much if I didn't get the experience of not having that every day.  So while I kind of hate this part of his job right now, in a way the Lord has used it to remind me to treasure the biggest thing in my life that I often take for granted - my husband.  So all the travel has ended up being a blessing (in an ugly disguise).

"Treasuring" has not looked like I thought it would this year - but I think it describes my year perfectly.  This year has been about learning and remembering to treasure all my "little" (which are really big) blessings.  The Lord has used this challenge in some surprising ways in my life this year - He is always keeping me guessing.  It's been a reminder that I can't plan things out, and the Lord decides how my life will go - and He has good plans for everything, even something as simple as a little word.  I can't wait to see what He has planned for 2014.
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Sara S said...

Loved this post! Love the whole word idea! Definitely need to sit down with my sweet husband and tell him about this idea!

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