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Last weekend we threw a little birthday celebration for Wyatt!
This was Wyatt on his actual birthday with his birthday muffin! We got some practice in blowing out candles. I took that picture while also filming Wyatt and singing him happy birthday. That was my super-mom moment, and I'm pretty proud of it, rare as they are!
The rest are pictures from the family party on Saturday! It was pretty low-key, just cake with immediate family, but I decided to do a tractor theme anyway!
(That's my attempt to draw a tractor in the corner!)
Wyatt is so into tractors right now, and he loved his tractor cake!
I ordered this children's book and had all the family write birthday messages to Wyatt on the inside cover, like a guestbook. I did this last year for Wyatt's first birthday too, and I think it's going to be our birthday tradition.
Perfect occasion to wear his tractor shirt!
Wyatt got lots of great gifts, including a Berenstein Bear book, a movie, clothes, bathtub ships, a tractor flashlight, a horse toy, a "Gator" tractor toy. Derek and I got him a car track (he's also very interested in cars right now), and Derek's family got Wyatt a basketball hoop!
He figured out how to throw the ball in the right way pretty quick though!
Wyatt playing with his new cars!
It was a nice time to celebrate with family, to celebrate our two year old! Wow, that's still weird to say . . .
When I was about 14 weeks pregnant with Wyatt, I remember going to my doctor's office for my first 2nd trimester checkup. I laugh when I think back on it, because those visits seem so routine now, but I was so excited and happy to be pregnant, and I couldn't wait to hear the swish, swish of my baby's heartbeat.
That day my doctor talked to me about some of the screening tests that we could do to make sure everything was okay with the baby, including one that should be done before 16 weeks to check for a possibility of Down's syndrome or birth defects. I had already kind of decided that I didn't want to bother with the screenings, especially when my doctor told me that they could usually tell on the 20 week ultrasound if there were any problems.
But knowing so little about the process at the time, I asked if there was any reason it would be good to know earlier. I know these days they can correct some problems while the baby is still in utero, and I was thinking they might want to know earlier for some things to make sure everything went smoothly the rest of the pregnancy.
My doctor kind of paused and then stuttered over her words, saying that some women would want to know earlier so they could terminate . . . (imagine a lot of "ums" and "uhs" in there) . . .
She must have seen the look on my face, because after I said "Oh, no . . ." while shaking my head, she immediately assured me that most women they see don't choose to do that even if the test is positive for abnormalities.
But in that instant, the life issue became more real to me than it ever had before. Because here I was, pregnant with my first child, enjoying every little symptom and examining my belly daily for growth . . . and I couldn't imagine that sweet life that was already so real to me being snuffed out.
And it could have been, with just a word.
I was pro-life before. But in that moment my heart broke like it never had before for all those babies who never had a chance.
(Wyatt when I was 15 weeks pregnant.)
I am not bringing this up to cast judgement on women who have had abortions. I've never walked in their shoes, but goodness knows they've already been through enough. They've lost something precious that they can never get back, and I think deep down most of those women know that. My heart breaks for them. And if that's you, I pray that you've found healing and hope.
I wanted to mention this because right now 40 Days for Life is happening across the country (and even internationally). 40 Days for Life is a peaceful prayer vigil, where Christians gather in front of abortion clinics to just pray for an end to abortion and for babies to be saved during the campaign. It's something I'd love to participate in some year, but for now, with two kiddos at home, I have to be satisfied with following their blog and praying right where I am.
For those of you who are also pro-life, definitely check out their blog, and I'd encourage you to pray too. Pray for an end to abortion in this country. Pray for many babies to be saved over these 40 days, for wisdom for the volunteers as they try to reach these women who feel they have no other choice. And pray for the women that go through with their abortions over the next 40 days, that they would find the forgiveness, and healing, and hope that only comes with knowing Jesus.
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P.S. If you are curious to know why I believe in the pro-life movement, I think this podcast explains it very well, and especially if you are pro-life I'd encourage you to listen to it. It's important to know why you believe the way you do on issues like this.
Since having Gwen I've been asked a few times which I thought was better - delivering naturally, or having an epidural. I know this can be a controversial topic, but I thought I'd give my opinion, based on my experience.
First let me say that I have no real strong feelings about either giving birth naturally or having an epidural. I think both are just fine, and I think epidurals and delivering naturally both have their place. Hopefully this means I can give an objective opinion since I've delivered both ways!
I know some people have some pretty strong convictions about delivering naturally because of the possible effects of the medications (among other reasons), but I'm not going to get into all the statistics on that. And I don't really want this post to become a debate on that aspect. I'm just comparing both of my experiences for those who are curious.
For any readers who weren't around two years ago, toward the end of my pregnancy with Wyatt I developed pre-eclampsia, and I ended up being induced. I got an epidural about six centimeters in. You can read the full birth story here.
With Gwen things moved so quickly that I ended up delivering her in the ambulance on the way to the hospital - and I delivered her naturally. You can read that full birth story here.
So on to a few specific questions . . .
Was the epidural painful?
I think this depends largely on the anesthesiologist, and thankfully I had a great one! It just felt a little like the end of a pencil tapping on my spine, and then it was over, and there was no more pain (except for a "hot spot", but I liked having the hot spot, so it didn't bother me). Delivering naturally is much more painful then the momentary discomfort of the epidural (just saying it like it is).
Did you notice any effects on Wyatt after the epidural?
Nada. Both Wyatt and Gwen seemed equally alert to me right after birth, and both had no trouble nursing. Obviously this might be different for some babies, but we had no issues. (You can read about possible effects on babies here, though the research on the ways babies can be affected and the amount of babies that are affected is "somewhat ambiguous", since every situation and baby is different.)
Were you still alert when you delivered Gwen?
This was one of the biggest things I was worried about when I thought about delivering naturally. I heard so many stories of women "zoning out" when delivering naturally and almost not even realizing when the baby had arrived - it's a way some women deal with the pain I guess, but I did not want that to be me! I loved being alert when I delivered Wyatt and remembering every detail of the moment he entered the world, and the thought that I might not remember much of the delivery if I delivered naturally was worrisome to me.
Thankfully this did not end up being the case for me with Gwendolyn! I remember every little thing leading up to Gwen's birth, and I knew the moment she was born, which is exactly what I wanted. Obviously it was a bit more peaceful with Wyatt than with Gwen, but I remembered and was alert for both deliveries.
Now, if I had been in labor longer I might have "zoned out" when delivering naturally. There's no way to know for sure since (thankfully) both my labors were quick.
Was the recovery time different between delivering naturally and with the epidural?
I honestly don't know that I can really answer this, because the situation each time was so different.
The recovery with Wyatt was much harder, but I'm not convinced it had as much to do with the epidural as it did with the medications and fluids they had to give me because of my pre-eclampsia and the fact that I hemorrhaged. It also might have been worse because he was my first. But I was much more swollen and sore after having Wyatt.
After Gwen I felt great the next day - a little sore, but not that bad, and I wasn't swollen at all. I felt amazing after a week! I tore both times, and I think the tear was a bit more noticeable with Gwen, probably because I was exerting myself more and I probably over-did it a bit, and also because I was less sore in general so I could feel it more.
Were the pitocin-induced contractions more painful?
This doesn't have so much to do with the epidural itself, but I thought it was relevant. And I'm going to say yes and no.
The contractions with Gwen were just as painful as the contractions I had on the pitocin with Wyatt. I think the difference is that the contractions started out easier when I labored naturally - they weren't that bad except for the last hour and half (and then they got really bad really fast). Once the contractions started picking up they were the same as or worse than the pitocin contractions.
When I had pitocin, the early contractions were more intense than the early contractions during my natural labor. I don't know for sure how they would have felt toward the very end since I had the epidural by that point. The contractions started out more intense but they worsened more gradually as they turned up the pitocin (as opposed to going from manageable to unbearable in a half hour like they did with Gwen).
To be honest though, the contractions were still manageable on the pitocin - I got the epidural mainly because I couldn't stand the thought of being checked again - it was worse than the contractions! But that's beside the point.
Now some people have intense contractions all the way through when they deliver naturally too (like my blog buddy, Brittany). And some people have a much more gradual progression in their natural labors than I did. This is just the difference that I noticed for my body.
How will you do it next time?
Honestly, I like not having a definite plan when it comes to birth. Nothing can really take you by surprise if you are open to anything that might happen.
I am glad I had the epidural with Wyatt. I was unable to move around with Wyatt because of my pre-eclampsia. I had bad back labor, and it was very painful to be checked with Wyatt. I had a great experience with the epidural, no problems pushing. With not being able to move and being strapped down by so many monitors, I was much happier after the epidural and it made my labor experience a more pleasant one than it would have been.
I am glad I had the chance to deliver Gwen naturally. I like being able to see what it was like to labor naturally and give birth naturally, and I honestly feel confident that I could do it again.
Whether I want to do it that way again is another question, and I don't have an answer. I was happy having the epidural - I was happy delivering naturally.
I'm actually already worried about making this decision next time - because with the way my labor progressed so quickly with Gwen, by the time I would have actually wanted the epidural it would have been too late to get it, even if we were at the hospital. I think I'll have to decide beforehand next time, or the decision might be made for me. And there were aspects of both ways that I really liked. So I just don't know.
That's not a very definitive answer on the epidural vs. natural question, but it's where I am right now.
In closing though, I just want to say that after having delivered both ways, I firmly believe that any woman has what it takes to deliver naturally when it comes right down to it. You might not think you would be strong enough to deliver without pain medication, but don't doubt yourself - you could do it. Whether you want to is the question. It's just a matter of preference. So if you want to deliver naturally, proceed with confidence! If you decide to go for the epidural, don't let anyone make you feel like you are a wimp or you aren't strong enough, because you are.
Just choose whatever you think would be the best choice for you, and know that any way it happens, giving birth is an amazing thing, and such an adventure!
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