This week has been exhausting for me.
Not so much physically, though we have been very busy. No, I'm emotionally exhausted. So much has happened this week.
Someone I know had a miscarriage.
Another announced their pregnancy.
Another friend got a negative pregnancy test again.
My dear childhood pen pal got engaged.
I read a blog post written by a lady who lost her baby in the third trimester.
A couple Derek and I are friends with welcomed their son into the world.
So much joy. So much pain. The contrast has never been so stark to me.
We are told in God's word to rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep (Romans 12:15). In my heart that's what I've been doing this week - but so many ups and downs. I honestly don't know whether to feel more happy or heartbroken.
It's times like these that my vision seems so clouded. The phrases "Thank you, Lord," and "Why?" are tangled up in my prayers.
Oh for the day when we shall "know fully", as 1 Corinthians 13 promises! When instead of peering through that dark glass we'll see everything plainly, as it is.
What a comfort it is to know that the same God who is pouring blessings this week on some of His children is also holding His struggling children by the hand! We are never alone, in the good times or the bad.
So this week, I'm crying with those who cry, and my heart is breaking for them. And I'm also laughing with those who laugh, praising the Lord for His faithfulness. And the two can be reconciled, because I can see God's hand working through it all.
"Weeping may endure for a night,
but joy cometh in the morning."
Psalm 30:5b
Oh what a sorrow and also joy-filled week! I'm sure I wouldn't know what to do with my emotions either. And while I'm looking forward to the day when our eyes are fully opened, I also know that God keeps full knowledge from us for a reason...our tiny human brains couldn't handle it.
Oh, Callie. What a crazy week!
That Psalm is one of my favorites. I'm so sorry to hear about the losses this week, but I rejoice with you in the blessings! It's been a weird week, but balanced in the way that the Lord has taken from and the Lord has given to his children (Job 1:21).
Absolutely beautiful post. You have me in tears today.
thanks for this today! i feel the same way this week. it is such a confusing feeling to be so sad and wondering "why God?" but then still have joy and peace because we know He is in control and loves us. regardless....God is good! hope you have a wonderful weekend callie! :)
This is what I love about the body of Christ, we are commanded to be genuine. To love, laugh, and cry. Complete opposite of the worlds view, which focuses on self. Being truly genuine is hard work, it's exhausting, and it requires that we constantly be full of the Spirit. Drawing our renewal from Him, so that we might be poured out for His sake. Thank you for the reminder, it's one I need often.
I know all too well how this feels. It is hard to rejoice being pregnant right now because one of my friends just had a miscarriage and another one has been trying for over a year to get pregnant with now avail. So hard to understand why it's so easy for some and so hard for others.
I love your post putting it into perspective though. Without our pain there would be no compassion, and no life lessons. We would never find value in anything. God is good, and that's all that matters at the end of the day.
Wow, what an emotional week for you and your friends!
God is so good and faithful and always in control which is amazing. And I'm glad that he's throwing in some amazing things to rejoice about in the midst of your sadness. Its those things that often remind me that He IS good...always.
wow...what a roller coaster. This makes me think of the worship song lyrics..."you give and take away. you give and take away. my heart will choose to say, blessed be the Lord."
I am praying for you friend. May you be able to rejoice and mourn at the appropriate times and continue to rest in God's almighty plan.
Wow..what a hard week. It is so hard to know how to feel when you get good news one minute and devestating news the next. My thoughts and prayers to all of those you mentioned..both with good news and bad...
Wow. Well said. And such an emotional week for you!! HUGS.
Wow I needed that verse so so badly today! What a reminder and what a promise!!! Thank you :)
Blessings!
You reflect on this so nicely Callie. I'm so sad to to hear about the losses this week. It just reminds me where there is joy there is also pain.
Thank you for that verse. I have been reading it over and over since you posted it, and it is exactly what I've needed lately. I'm sorry you had such an emotionally exhausting week. I hope this week has been better
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