It's getting to be that time of year when I start thinking about homeschool curriculum for next year. I think I am mostly continuing on with a lot of the same curriculum we've been using, but there are a few areas where I'll probably change it up a bit. I'm thinking of switching to a more structured history curriculum for my (soon to be) 3rd grader and 2nd grader, while still adding in the read-alouds we've been doing. I've done something similar with Wyatt's curriculum this year, using America's Story 1 as a spine, and adding in books from the BFB booklist. Textbooks are thorough, but there is nothing like a living book to bring history alive, and I wanted to make sure I was incorporating plenty of them. I've mostly been having Wyatt read these extra books on his own, but I was reminded the other day that it's beneficial for me to still read historical living books to him too.
I was reading one of Wyatt's assigned books to him. called "Of Courage Undaunted", about the Lewis and Clark expedition. He was having trouble getting into it, so I had him read some of it aloud to me, and then I read some of it aloud to him. I'm so glad I did, because I came across this quote by Meriwether Lewis:
This day I completed my 31st year, and conceived that I had in all human probability now existed about half the period which I am to remain in this sublunary world. I reflected that I had as yet done but little, very little indeed, to further the happiness of the human race, or to advance the information of the succeeding generation. I viewed with regret the many hours I have spent in indolence and now soarly feel the want of that information which those hours would have gotten me had they been judiciously expended, but since they are past and cannot be recalled, I dash from the gloomy thought, and resolve in the future to redouble my exertions and at least endeavor to promote those two primary objects of human experience, by giving them the aid of that portion of talents which nature and fortune have bestowed on me; or in the future, to live for mankind, as I have heretofore lived for myself.
I mentioned in my post a few weeks ago that I have been struggling through having more time for deep thought. You would think having more time for some good, hard thinking is a good thing, and in the wide view it is, but it's difficult to remember that when I spiral into hashing out a bunch of events from the past, regretting the way I've handled certain situations, or mourning the time I have sometimes wasted.
Since this has been my frame of mind lately, I was almost relieved to read this quote by one of our nation’s heroes, written when he was pretty close to my age, about how he had experienced and managed similar thoughts. I had assumed I was struggling through this because of the absence of social media, which I've admittedly used to numb myself from difficult thoughts for years now.
But maybe it's not so much of a result of leaving social media as it is the fact of being in my early thirties. Maybe this is the time that people usually evaluate how life has gone so far, how they could have done things better, ways to serve others more meaningfully in the future.
Knowing that someone else in history, well over two hundred years ago, worked through some of the same personal reflections that I am working through now, is comforting to me somehow. There is nothing new under the sun. People have gone through this before. Significant things often happen in the latter half of life, and misused beginnings don't doom a person to repeat the same mistakes forever.
I find it interesting that Lewis wrote those words when he was actually in the middle of the task for which he is remembered most. He bemoaned his wasted time while in the middle of what is considered his greatest accomplishment. It makes me wonder if he didn't see the importance of what he was doing at the time in exploring the Louisiana Purchase for his young country, or if he had some other accomplishment in mind as even more meaningful.
What did he do after that grand expedition? Apparently, according to the book, he settled down on some land and raised a family. And you know, I don't think he forgot about what he had written in the wilds of the Rocky Mountains. I like to think that in investing the rest of his future into his family, he did indeed further the happiness of the human race and advance the information of the succeeding generation, in all the hidden ways that every parent should.




Today my kids woke up as I was finishing my quiet time, and I was greeted by a chorus of little voices calling my name (which is "Mommy", of course). They grinned at me, and laughed with each other, and ran to make their beds and get dressed before breakfast.
Today is just like any other day to them.
For the first time, I realized this summer that while 9/11 will always be a vivid memory in my mind, from here on out all brand-new, 18-year-old adults are people who were not even born then. There is a whole generation of kids who will only read about 9/11 in the history books, the way I read about Pearl Harbor. My kids are in that group.
That is so bizarre to me. Because my memory is crystal clear of my mom rushing into my room one morning to tell me to get upstairs quickly to watch the news. A plane had crashed into a building. I had no idea what she was talking about, I thought it must be a history program she wanted us to watch for school. So I had another half hour of living in my own pre-9/11 world while I got ready for the day.
I remember being glued to the TV for the rest of the morning. I remember seeing black specks falling from the building and realizing with horror that those were people. I remember sitting in silence, watching the first tower fall. Then the second. I remember seeing the clouds of debris taking over the streets, swallowing people on the streets. First responders covered in gray dust. I remember the black scar on the Pentagon building, the news that another plane had crashed in a field. I remember when everyone realized that this wasn't just an accident.
That afternoon I needed a break, and I went outside for a walk. Yellow aspen leaves rustling in the breeze. A blue, blue sky, and autumn in the air. I thought, and I prayed, and maybe I grew up a little right then.
I remember how the country pulled together afterward. I remember how for a little while we weren't Democrats or Republicans, we were only Americans. Maybe that was the one good thing to come out of the horrible tragedy of that day, that we all had the chance to know what being united feels like.
I don't know if schools even teach kids about that day as history yet, but they should. I know I plan to educate my children about 9/11 and tell them my story. But maybe not yet. They are small still, and prone to nightmares. Maybe I just want them to be little a while longer before they fully know what kind of place the world can be.
But some year soon I'll pull open the news footage on my computer or we'll watch a documentary, and I'll make sure they know. About the towers that fell, planes that were used as weapons, heroes who ran toward the danger, and countrymen who were lost. I want them to remember what happened that day, even if it feels like distant history to them. I'll tell them my memory of 9/11, just as I hope others are doing with their children who are old enough.
I would hope this day is commemorated, some of the footage shown, those who died honored in memory forever. So that even those who don't remember would never forget.
I promise that I'm not evading the question so that I can keep it a secret until his birth. We just honestly don't know what we want to name our little boy.
It seems like everyone has names picked out for their children so quickly, and I feel like a bit of a name-picking slacker. But I find that if I think about a name too much I tend to get tired of it, and then I'm not sure if I like it anymore. That's why I didn't have names picked out for a boy already.
In an effort to start thinking about what names I like, I went to the Social Security website. If you go to their website you can see the top 1000 names from any given year since 1879. It's a pretty cool feature.
So I decided to print up the list of the top 1000 names from the years of 1900 and 2009.
I picked 2009 because I want to see what's popular right now.
I picked 1900 because Derek and I like classic/Old English names. I'm not so crazy about modern names - I like a name to have a history, personally, and I like it to be easy to spell. I figured I'd get a good variety of classic names from the year 1900.
I saved the lists to my computer and started deleting some of the names that I know I don't like. I wasn't too surprised at seeing some crazy ones in the 2009 list, but I was very surprised by what I found in the 1900 list.
Apparently it was a fad in the year 1900 to name little boys with girl's names.
Oh, but not just the general girl's names, the ones that could be a bit ambiguous - like Ashley or Lindsey or Kelly. I still think those are girl's names, but you hear them enough as boy's names that it's not entirely unusual.
No, I'm talking extremely feminine names. Names like Rose, Elsie, Gertrude, Ella, Helen, Allison, Irene, Vivian, Annie/Anna, Emma, and Margaret.
And these weren't just isolated incidents.
Eleven little boys were named Lillian.
Sixteen were named Elizabeth.
Twenty-two Jewel's, and twenty-two Bertha's.
And yes, there were even nine boys named Callie. At least with that one they could be called "Cal" or something. How do you shorten Lillian to something acceptable? Or Anna?
All together, about half a percent of the boys born in 1900 had what I would consider to be clearly girl's names. That may not sound like much at first, but it probably adds up to a couple hundred boys at least.
Those poor little guys.
I kept double checking the list to make sure I was on the boy side. But there was no mistake - it was the boy side.
It just goes to show that people can think up weird names for their babies no matter what year they live in.